Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.
The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort behind a single eye that lasts for several hours.
About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.
In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.
Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.
National guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.
But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidance need updating to reflect a